SEEING IS BELIEVING.

she was having visions. she wanted it to go away. so she went to seek help. but what she bargained for wasn't what she had.
she saw this little girl. all broken and tattered. she was screaming in pain. it was more than pain. and she wanted to go away. she saw alot of blood. mainly her own. spilling out from the self inflicted wounds. but it wasn't enough for her. so she began scratching. when her skin became too thin. although it bagan to hurt, she refused to stop. it was an addiciton. she needed the pain. but she never cried. she could kick and scream and do anything she wanted. but she never cried. cause she felt that it was a weakness to cry infront of people. so she hid herself. away from the world. which is why she's still hiding away from herself.
and then she saw him.
he looked broken. but not like she was. there was two of him. one tormenting the other. one hiding from the other. his split personality. one was the tyrant. the other was the submissive one. he couldn't decide which one he was. the tyrant was beating the other up. torturing him. hurting him. killing him. berating him for a mistake he know he shouldn't have made. he was breaking. he's cracking. becoming someone he doesn't know. changing so drastically that even he scares himself. slowly but surely.

i don't know why all these is happening.
all i can say is to look after yourself.
there is nothing much i can do.
as much as i want to.
but i can't be the one to fix you.
you have to fix yourself.

i was supposed to watch a movie with sean.
the movie starts at 330.
but he came at 345!
an hour late!
cause we were suppposed to meet at 245.
basket!
and eat up all my onion rings somemore.
and stole my phone!
basket.
humph!